i have little respect for my father. he lies all the time to my mom and he acts all high and mighty when theres nothing to prove hes worth anything. he never finished college because it was “too much work.” he would get mad at me about a b or c on my report card like “youre not gonna get into college” like ok says the one who would lie about going to classes and just sit in the parking lot doing nothing. hes always drinking and sitting in the backyard and he thinks that everyone in the whole world should be sorry for him because he has nothing going in his life. like fucking do something about it!! hes unemployed right now and he doesnt want to apply anywhere because he thinks that hes too good for a minimum wage job. ok just sit in the house doing nothing all day for the rest of your life just living off your wife. he goes on about respect and shit but how can i look up to and respect someone who is exactly who i dont want to be? not to mention im the child he hates the most. when i was like 7 or 8 he got drunk and was sleeping on the couch and i was trying to help him get to his bed but then he just blurted out “christabel you are not my daughter i dont love you.” imagine hearing that at that age. that stuck with me for the rest of my life.